The Past.
I thought about the waves on the beach
And how I so wished to be among them
Jumping into them
You beside me
Perhaps I didn’t notice the waves then
No, not just perhaps, certainly
How nice the pressure felt against my body
How nice it was to be underwater in the midst of midnight
I thought about digging my fingernails into the sand
You next to me
Another minute
Right on top of me
Certainly I didn’t know how good the sand felt
Every molecule comforting me
Making me feel not alone for once
When that’s all you really did.
The Future.
I remember a time when all I dreamed about was where I am now
The first taste of freedom
That was all I wanted
I probably dreamed more than I ever had before
Before I even knew where I was going
I knew of the experiences
I glamorized it all, as I always do
Before I even knew where I was heading
I can’t shake it
The feeling rumbling inside me on an empty stomach
That I’ve wasted my time
Not doing what I really love
But perhaps thinking about it
Stopped me from really doing it
Doing what I love
What I love all the time…
The Present.
I look at the fall trees around me
Walking by, I just woke up
Half late to class by now
But still take the time to smile
I eat lunch with people that make me laugh
That make me realize how good it is to feel alive
To talk about the things I really love
It feels so good to be alive, to talk my talk
The beach is so far from me now
But I still find places all around me
That amaze me
Despite seeming them everyday
I walk along the cracked street
Feeling the wind and not even thinking
I feel the whooshing of the wind
How comforting it is right now.